Thursday, October 29, 2009
 today wake up sleep and sleep again. feel like very tired no strength even though i sleep for the whole day. like something important missing in my life. feel like going back to be baby like last time again. know nothing , don't need think so much just eat,sleep and play how i wish i could live like that ): now still lying on the bed thinking what to do tomorrow. still confusing don't know which road is suitable for me. tired tired tired tired tired tired ~~~~ ): today dint even talk to him a word. should i text him? or shouldn't allot of time feel like text him but i seem to know the answer. then no point text him right? want go back Thailand faster!! shopping shopping shopping ~~~~~ :) i need a break!! long break for me to think. time is so sort, but why life is so hard to live on Wednesday, October 28, 2009  wo cheng jing yi wei,ai shang ni bu hui chuo. ni rang wo mei you ba wo wo ai ni ai hao xin ku ai de hao wu zhu ai de wu neng xing wu,ai hao can ku wo sui ran nan guo,ren bu zhu de ku ni bing bu zhai hu  I just so tired right now ): feel like this whole world is so empty, nothing. i dunno what to post anymore. i just wake up but i feel really tired no strength seriously who can tell me what i should do? why am i being like this? how can i be cold blooded girl abit? tell me why?? why? why? Monday, October 26, 2009  I'll never let you go❤.woke up early in the morning, nothing to do pass by to blogging. nothing special for now... only......... i just feel that we are much better now more sweet more care ad more love. maybe i get use to he no time for me but that also not what he want. he also stress out of it,but he got no choice. so if i can understand all that i think it is just perfect now. maybe it may not be as same as the past. everything neeed time, feeling & trust had to earn ourself. it has been 2 years since we first met. and untill now i still love him more and more day past day. so i belive that together we can do it! for now since we still young cant do whatever we wants. cant go out whatever time we like. i believe as long as we not gonna give up. one day there will be the day for us. the day that only me and you. the day when we can g out whatever time we want. the day we can do whatever thing we like. the day that when i wake up in the morning i will saw you beside me. i will wait till that day no matter what (: ................... .............. ........... ......... ....... .... ... .. . No matter how hard this road with you nothing impossible. i will never let go. Sunday, October 25, 2009 Without you,it hurts me more. i don't want to live without you and i cant live without you ................. .............. ........... ........ ...... .... ... .. .  .......................... ......... ....... ..... .... ... .. . Text t order Fried Bee Hoon early in the morning. free of charge & free delivery to my house. Nice right? Thank you to that PIG,for waking up early cook for me. hahaha, promise him will pei him go down meet his friends. but in the end stay at home blogging ( save $$$ ) i very bad right? SORRY ~~ don't so xiao qi lurrr.. saving $$ go back Thailand shopping de ma. tonight also go out need spent $$ again.. i know u very understanding guy one.. ^^ tired tired tired ~~ want take a nap awhile. enjoy ya,PIG Thursday, October 22, 2009  LOVE, it can make u smile for the rest of your lifebut it can also make u cry for the rest of your life.♥
NO matter how long it gonna take me to prove my love, i will do it Wednesday, October 21, 2009   Another day without you beside me♥. what more now? i feel like I'm piss him off. so sorry about that.. seriously, i dun mean it. i dunno why am i being do irritating to him. am i? see him stress with all the stuff, but all i can do is nothing. i promise him to be there for him cheer him up, but yet i've done Nothing but irritating him. i seriously believe that everyone can change,no one has to stay stuck. we are human being not a tree. but why i trying so hard to please him but i fail to do so. will he know that how much i love him? cant he feel it? don't u think relationships are very confusing? when u think it should work it didnt work,when u think it wont work,it work funny isn't it? people we love, they cant be there for u but people we don't love, they'll always be there for you. how i wish u would be there for me too ): all i can do is give my best effort till bed time let tmr take care of itself. I MISS YOU Tuesday, October 20, 2009 .jpg) What can i do? i dont want force it anymore liao ya, it seem only make u feel irritated by it. i dont want u to run away from me another time. NO! i wont! silent is better than run away itn't it? i'am sorry, i didnt seem to be the one that can be there cherring u up when u upset. i already try mu best to cheer u up but just i'am not the one u needs at that moment. i also dunno what the hell i want form u? before i think as long as u are there, no matter u love me or not it doesn't matter. but when u give me this i wanted more and more from u. i wnat ur love ur care non-stop. am i being selfish? maybe that is what peoples do expect from the person they love? it is? i am afraid to express out my feeling toward you. i dunno how to make u love me back? every road i choose to walk without u are painful. what is wrong with me? anyone? why am i loving him so much? why? and why he dont love me? why? one-side love are hurts lot ya.. maybe u wont undertsnad this kind of feeling now, one day when u love the person more than the person love u, then u will turely undertsnad how much i pains. no matter how pain it course.. i still cnat live without him. eventhough his love was a lies or imagination of me. but it is a happy lies for me,the lies that make me live on. |
" i’m who you want me to be. cos you’re my one and only., cos you were all I ever wanted cos you were all I ever needed and more. cos i’m still in love with you. " October 2009 June 2010 |